Swirly and Rambling 🌀
Jupiter in Pisces ⛲️ / Eclipse Portal 🕳
I’m thinking about a lot of things this eclipse season. Scorpio energy likes intensity - it brings up emotion, rules over death, the occult, power, money and sex. It highlights shadow, brings forth healing, plays in the dark places many don’t want to see. It is the tarot readers, the psychotherapists, the sex workers, the power players - and we ALL have scorpio in our chart. It doesn’t matter where your sun sign is, we are all a mix of these cosmic energies, they dance differently within us, but they are all there.
Eclipses bring up change, transformation and healing, and with the south node in Scorpio, we are releasing and excavating deep energies, maybe even past life karma at this time. And it might feel subtle, or it might feel deep. It might be surface level stuff, or a feeling in your body, an emotion that you’re not quite sure what to do with, or a pattern you’ve been living in for quite some time showing itself to you.
I’ve been feeling a lot of intense emotion, and the feeling of wanting to understand it, to analyze it, to figure it out. And an immediate NO from deep within- telling me to sit with it, to just feel it and let it pass. Not every feeling is meant to be fixed or changed or solved. Not every feeling is a problem, let it be.
I’m feeling an undercurrent of change, in the way I speak, in the way I think, new work and home opportunities starting to surface. And fear. I feel in my bones something shifting but I have no idea how it looks logistically, how to make it work. Like I have the puzzle pieces laid out on the table but I don’t know how they fit.
I want to change, I want these new things. And yet. I feel like there is a hand on my back pushing me forward and I'm reluctantly digging my heels in the dirt. Why is it that even good change, is so damn terrifying?
The veil is thin right now, we are said to have more access to the spirit world or feel more sensitive to the energies around us. To me it’s so vulnerable to let myself feel the intensity of the world around me, the sadness of a friend’s grief, the fear of a mother caring for a sick child, the joy of a new opportunity - it’s so interesting that joy can be equally as scary to feel as grief. The vulnerability to really let it in, and soak in the experience it.
This week I read for a psychic, very successful in her craft, and at least 20 years my senior, and she told me she felt emotions were mostly useless. I was stunned. The process of allowing myself to feel (not wallow in, but feel) my emotions has been one of the most healing aspect of my life. To notice where I resist, label, judge my feelings and then just let them be, has been transformational.
And yet, my ability to see and hold her reality without judgement is such a strong testament to my own practice. Because I used to think there was a right and wrong way to heal. I made it my fucking job to learn the right way, to do it the right way, to make sure everyone knew I was getting it right, to prove I am not wrong or bad or stupid. And so much of that feels futile now. I don’t want to be right, I want to be happy, and kind and alive and open to the experiences available to me in each moment.
This eclipse season for me has a strong connection to my finances, and the last eclipse in May my car kept breaking down and I had to buy a new one and come to terms with the fact that I needed to be smarter with my money in many ways. So I took a finance course, I learned about investing, stock, bonds, nfts and all the things. I opened a savings for car maintenance, I got a side gig working at the same company I did when Pluto entered Capricorn in 2008, and I had my car serviced and replaced my exhaust the week before the eclipse, just to prepare!!!! And yet, it’s still deep, there are new things to look at, more changes to make. This is the second of three eclipses on the scorpio/taurus axis, so this is only the midpoint of our growth in this area.
And amongst all this release, Jupiter in Pisces dips in and asks us to stay deeply committed to our visions, to connect to our truth and higher purpose, our why. To imagine more for ourselves and make it our job to align our actions with that, more on that in the reading below….
This was a bit swirly and rambling, as eclipse season can be. I’m going to try and balance staying low and grounded, with my higher visions for the future and sit in the liminal space of eclipse season, because I know for sure, something different is waiting on the other side of this portal.
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King of Swords + Dog
The Exemplar of Arrows (traditionally King of Swords) is all about vision, logic and aligning with our personal truths. We are right in the middle of eclipse season, a time of change and transformation, maybe of some turbulence or uncertainty - so this message to commit to our visions and get in touch with our values seems like a light at the end of the tunnel we are currently walking through.
A message to get clear on what we want, so we can make commitments to the daily things we need to do to get there. To make sure our thinking, our belief systems and ultimately our actions are in service to ourselves, our visions and our values.
Dog comes in to ask a few questions: Have I forgotten that I owe my allegiance to my personal truth in life? Have I been loyal to my own goals? If not, what stands in my way? Do I let the opinions of others jade my loyalty to myself or friends?
Jupiter is now in Pisces until the end of December, this brings blessings into the part of our chart that governs our spirituality, our imagination, our dreams, visions and intuition. Your stories hold power, your dreams are pathways to your deepest desires - let it be possible that there is an outcome even better than you could imagine.
Vibes:
vision boards, visualization, dreamwork, yoga Nidra, automatic writing, intuitive practices like meditation, pranayama, sacred stillness, the color violet (wear it, put in on your altar, your vision board, etc), amethyst, purple fluorite, lepidolite, incense and your biggest dreams