For most of my life, I didn’t. That was for the writers, artists, painters and musicians.
I went to business school, excelled in math and science. I was told not to get a BA if I wanted a “real job.”
I never wanted a real job. But I went ahead and graduated Magna Cum Laude with a BS in business and got one.
I really wanted to dance. I was good, one of the best. But none of my friends did it so I quit at 13 to play soft ball and field hockey. I got hazed and broke my nose.
When I finally followed my heart to a career that harnessed my talents and gifts, I was so used to shape shifting, I didn’t really trust my voice.
So I did what I knew how to do, I took in all the information on all the things and jumbled it all up in my brain and repurposed it into something that felt like me, but it wasn’t fully me.
If I had an original thought or idea it would have to be weighed against a plethora of “experts” and distilled down to resemble what I was sure they knew and I didn’t.
The first person (that I remember) who called me creative was my therapist, after I have plainly declared, “I am just not a creative person.” She challenged me, pointed out my outfits, my yoga sequences, writing, etc. She planted a seed of doubt in my rigid beliefs.
It’s been over a decade of trying to unlearn what I was taught. To feel safe enough to play. To let it be possible that creativity lives inside me.
Creativity isn’t limited to art, it’s our ability to look at a situation and see possibility - whether we are creating intimacy, a spreadsheet, a meal or a song. It’s not something we need to sit down and do, but how we move through the world.
“To fully live our truth as individuated beings, is to live life as a creative act.” - Anodea Judith
This Leo Season, I’m reminding myself of my innate creativity and that it’s safe to share my voice, because my truth is the only one I can truly speak from.
Fun (Leo) Things:
👨🏼🎤 Brave like Bowie - a tapping routine for when you need courage
⛓ How to Build a Sex Room on Netflix is the perfect Leo season / Summer watch
📚 The Artist’s Way & Creativity Inc. to strengthen your creative muscles (ok I haven’t read these but they are on my list and my partner has quoted half the book to me while reading so….)
✨ Thank you so much for being here! For a little sneak into the paid subscriber option, tomorrow for 8.08 Lion’s Gate Portal, paid subscribers will receive a video with a channeled message, a tarot card reading for August & a guided vocal toning exercise to balance the chakras.
The Star + Magic
The Star is like the light at the end of the tunnel, the calm after the storm - and last week’s energy was, at least astrologically, pretty stormy. Like a healing salve on a wound, The Star brings rejuvenation.
I always associate this card with the throat chakra, our self expression, so this week is inviting us to do what star’s do- shine. Share your magic, share your voice, channel your intuitive knowings into tangible action.
This week, focus on how you communicate your truth to others and trust in your ability to heal and be healed. Take small steps towards your dreams, hope + action will equal innovation.
Vibes:
spells, magic, ritual, the colors blue and turquoise, sing, write, chant, journal, take up space, ritual baths, prayer or faith based practices, self trust, dreams and aspirations, this playlist, star gaze🌌