Ebbs and Flows 🌊
Virgo Season begins/ New Moon 8.27♍︎
Last week we had some gorgeous astrology. It was a beautiful pause after a pretty turbulent storm. And while it wasn’t full of crazy external blessings, it offered a sense of grounded-ness and ease I haven’t felt in a while.
One day I got on the mat for pilates, and after about 2 minutes I could feel so much tension in my hamstrings, so I grabbed my strap and did a 20 minute stretch routine instead. I did a reiki exchange with a friend. I cooked a lot and moved slow, listened to records and went with the flow.
Over the weekend, it was a different story. Nothing went as planned, there were last minute cancellations and things I had been working on for months that fell through. And I really wanted to make it mean something about me, or my work or my worth. I felt frustrated and stuck, I got really focused on what the people around me were doing / not doing.
I think so often when I feel really lost or stuck, I focus on the external - what my partner is doing, the housing crisis in our area, my instagram shadow ban - whatever it is that I decide keeps me from achieving my goals. After so many years of working and healing codependency, I still find all these little ways I give my power away.
And also how human of me to do so. How absolutely normal of me to ebb and flow from tension to ease. To feel open, then closed, lost, then found. How totally appropriate of me to doubt myself, then catch myself in a fear based lie and call it out.
It makes absolute sense that I want to please others, that displeasing them feels scary or uncomfortable. And how human it is to see that sometimes, that’s exactly what I need to do in order to stay true to myself. I am reminded of a favorite Rumi poem:
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
This week, we move towards the New Moon in Virgo, which is associated with The Hermit card in the tarot. A reminder that all we really need to know, is within us. Virgo’s mutable energy means that we can adapt to whatever transitions we are met with, because there will be many.
I hope this week brings you many opportunities, whether in the thick or thin of it, to remember your humanity, your goodness and how absolutely acceptable it is to feel the way you do.
Simple Joys:
🎷 One of my favorite albums to listen to on vinyl
🌾 Virgo season medicine & new moon ritual suggestions on my blog
💲 Support a new business, Keisa is a friend/coworker from YogaWorks, her company looks amazing and will help many
🥮 A torte so nice, I made it twice! (because we ate it as a dinner side and with eggs and ketchup for breakfast)
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The Hierophant rx + Trust
The moon is now waning to the balsamic phase, the last phase before a new cycle begins on Saturday. In the balsamic phase, the wisdom of the entire cycle is revealed and concentrated into a seed to plant on the new moon. We are seeding new concepts within old structures, or perhaps restructuring altogether.
The Hierophant represents traditions, structures and teachers. It is the wisdom passed down to us, by parents, religions, society or mentors. When this card is pulled in the reversed position, I read it as an invitation to break free from a pattern. Much of the healing work we do is about unlearning what we were taught and having the courage to chart a new path.
Trust comes in with support, because doing something new is often scary, ungrounding and unclear. This is not the easy, paved route, but the twisted, winding, overgrown path - you may not be able to see that far in front of you, so you will need to trust in yourself, know that each step forward will reveal a bit more. The answers are not outside of you, do not seek guidance from friends or mentors. There is no wisdom on your phone, books or podcasts - all you need is within- trust it.
Vibes:
Stones like lepidolite, sodalite and lapis lazuli, journaling, EFT and positive affirmations spoken out loud (or taped to your mirror so you can say them to yourself every day), your internal fire to light the way forward, confidence, fake it till you make it, releasing exercises like salt baths, fire ceremonies & cord cutting, new moon intention setting - write it, speak it, send it out into the universe on the wind🌬